Amber's Confession

“Come on, Please Jonah! For old times sake.”
He sighed, scratching his head a bit “ alright alright, but just this one. Okay?”
Amber’s smile grew, and she practically sprinted towards the confessional. Jonah could not help but smile as he followed . Her enthusiasm surprised him, especially since she had never voluntarily gone inside the confessional before.

For old times sake, Jonah had even thrown on one of the old priests robes that were lying around. Although is was a little small on him now. Stepping into the tiny booth, he saw Amber sitting across from him. Her small face and expressions barely visible through the mesh. As if they had been practicing it together for years, both of them formed the sign of the cross, while Amber recited.

“ In the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit, my last confession was two and a half years ago.”

“Two years is a long time to go without confessing ones sins” Has it really been two years? Already? “ Confess to me your sins and you will be forgiven.”

“Well...” Amber fidget “ it’s not really a confession of sin... but.. a long time ago. Well, I guess it wasn’t too long ago...er.. When the world was normal, before the infection, I wasn’t exactly... I wasn’t the person that I am now. I did horrible things to myself, and probably to others too without even realizing it .I was out to live only for myself, because there was no one out there to live for. At least, that is what I thought up until I met this guy.” she sighed, resting her chin in her hands and staring at Jonah, trying to find the right words “ This guy , helped me when no one else would. When I was at my lowest point, he was the hand that helped pull me back up. He was...the nicest person I have ever known. So...selfless. I wanted, for the longest time, to be like him. To be a person others could depend on. To be a person they could depend on. He taught me what it took to be that person, and so many other things that have helped me continue to live, even as the world around me crumbled to pieces. “

Listening to her, Jonah suddenly felt a tremendous rush of guilt.He looked down to his hands, folded neatly in his lap , as they trembled a bit . If he had know that he had had such an impact on some ones life, he would never had tried to take his own.

“And” Amber continued “ for the longest time I have wanted to tell him something. Even though... its been a long time, and things have changed . I’m not sure these words are true any more, especially since I thought he was gone. but still, I want to say it, just because it’s been baggage that I have had to carry all this time...”

Jonah looked up and met Amber’s gaze. Her blue eyes locked onto his, staring intently. It was a scenario he was all to familiar with . But this time it was different.

Because it was Amber

“ I loved you, Jonah”

Much to her own surprise, Amber felt little to no reaction when the words left her lips. No skip in the heart beat, no butterfly in her stomach. No feeling of love , just...affection for the person sitting across from her,clearing his throat as if it was something he had heard so many times before.

“Amber..” he started “ I am...touched that you once felt that way about me. To know that my life gave meaning to some one else;s... to be such a part of your life is truly an honor. One that I am most unworthy of...”

‘Oh shit’ Amber suddenly panicked when she saw Jonah wipe away a few tears ‘Way to make him cry you heartless bitch !’

“Thank you Amber” he said” To know that some one cared about me that much. It brings Joy to my life.”

Seeing that sad smile broke her heart, and she wished more than anything that she could have been there for him all those months ago when he had felt so alone. When his loneliness had driven him to the point where he no longer wanted to live.
“No” she said , smiling brightly “ Thank you ...Jonah-”

For what? There are so many things that I am grateful to you for... No amount of “ Thank You’s could ever be enough !

“Thank you for absolutely everything!”